Happy New Year?

I have always known that I am supposed to write. I used to write short stories, scripts, outlines. I was always writing. So it’s crazy that once again we’re here with me not writing, because, well, here furthermore I provide excuses why I haven’t been writing 🤦🏾‍♀️ Tuh! But it can be so hard, guise! Particularly when you allow YOU to get in the way. 

This is me. I stay getting in my own way and it’s so annoying, but it’s so easy to do. Doubt, fear, all that other trivial bullshit always convinces me I have nothing to say. Or that no one cares. No one is reading it. That I can’t be successful writing. That I’m not good at it. And because somehow we trust doubt and fear more than our own intuitions, we believe it. All of it. And sometimes, we add some more nonsense to it. 

But I don’t want to be like this anymore...lol! So I’m working so hard to change it. The world needs me. That’s such a bold statement, but why else am I here?! I know I have purpose. I no longer need to reaffirm that my steps are ordered. I just need to do! People need to hear what I have to say. Even if sometimes I’m not even sure what that is.  And there is absolutely nothing wrong with that. I guess I can say I know that now...or maybe that I’m learning to accept it would be more apt. Not knowing what to say isn’t the same as choosing to be mute. The ability to try still exists, and through the attempt, just maybe you can figure it out. 

So that’s what I’m going to do. I’m going to try, and at least through trying, I can say I’m doing. This new decade brought lots of ‘visions’ for many, and by now, we’re all far too aware of how 2020 and her bitch ass cousins have kept their feet on our necks, but it’s time to reclaim our time. And for me, it has to be about actions! 

I’m listening. I’m listening to my God. The universe. Those that genuinely mean me well. Those that encourage me. Hell, I’m even listening to the ones way in the back talking shit on me. I hear you, shawty, and I thank you for your motivation!

Here’s to writing more and getting better.